~sydnerella

the name of my solo. it went okay. i was freaking out the whole time. i didnt see nesh but i think he was there. ah well. i saw drew!

its sad because one guy was saying after the concert - "oh youre going big places with that voice. youll get really far if you keep singing like that." it was nice, certainly not an insult. but it feels like i may have a good voice for nothing. i dont want to pursue singing. i want to write. i feel like im taking my voice for granted or something. im probably just being retarded but i have felt like this for a while. and another girl i knew [kind of - becca bauer i think] came up to me and said it was beautiful and said you should go into opera. and that made me happy and all but it just added pressure onto what i should do when im older.

dont get me wrong - i have already made up my mind that i will write if it kills me. if i suck then i suck. so be it. but i will write.

its just odd i guess. tedious. confusing.